This is what's CRAZY

A Story by Real13

People must learn to have the courage to use their words and solve an issue instead of letting their emotions destroy them on the inside.

Here's what is crazy. It's crazy how you will be in your room at night going crazy thinking about someone and you just want them next to you and you want to tell them how you feel and you miss being close to them and you love them and it's all so overwhelming that it makes you cry and you can't fall asleep and you lay there sad and alone thinking about how all you want is that person and you want to just make them yours. You go to sleep with tears in your eyes and you feel awful, you finally pass out and dream about this person and being happy together and then you wake up feeling sad again to the sound of your alarm clock and having to face the struggles of everyday life. You get up and you're in a bad mood and come off as a rude person when you're just really sad deep down and don't want to talk about it because no one will understand how you truly feel and you if you mention it either they won't care or they will say get over it and have no idea how much it means to you and how much it makes you happy. You go to school and try your best to focus but this person is constantly on your mind and you daydream of the thought of holding and being with them and you try to shake them off but you can't. You get out of class and you see this person in the hallway and you get butterflies all throughout your body, in places you never thought you could get them. You slowly approach each other and it's like you can't even breathe now, but you're able to build up the courage to give a shy and awkward "hi", they say hi too and you walk by each other. You continue walking sad that you only said "hi" and that you and that person are nothing anymore. As you head to your next class, the other person is walking to theirs just as sad. Thinking how crazy it is that you only said "hi" to them after everything you've gone through, how they have no idea how much you were thinking about her and crying and missing her smile and the happiness she brought you every single day. You want to tell her but you know she would think you're insane for feeling this way, because who would feel this way about someone right? She'd never think about me at night or dream of the thought of us together, so why should I tell her how I feel? I'll just have to keep it inside of me and let it drive me insane instead of going up to her and saying babe i'm sorry for everything that has happened to us but f**k all of it okay I was wrong, you were wrong but you and I are f*****g right together so let's be in love again.

© 2016 Real13

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barleygirl

As a piece of writing, this is full of run-on sentences. But I understand, becuz this writing style illustrates the nature of obsessive thinking you are showing us. Thank you for helping us understand how it can be for a young person in the world of crushing & separating & driving oneself crazy. As an old person, I wish I could suggest an antidote, but I know it's impossible to stop oneself, when locked in a repetitive cycle of torturous thinking like this. I guess this is one reason to be happy I'm old now, becuz my mind is easily distracted from such obsessive thinking. As for not telling people (in general) about our loving feelings, this is an epidemic in life, not just concerning a person we might be crushing on. Very realistic writing & very good point to show . . . hopefully your words will wake up at least one person who will tell that other person how he/she cares (((HUGS)))