Daddy please come back

I never really knew my dad

I never really knew the story of why he left

He took off when I was young enough to not really know he was there

My father left my mom when I turned two years old, before I’d grown old enough to know the figure predestined to mold my image of manhood had disappeared from our lives

I didn’t have a father because I’d been outnumbered

Truth is as close as I can get without going over is he never really cared about me

He took off the first chance he got

Walked out on us leaving us in the dust

How can he do that to me?

I used to look out my window at night calling Daddy please come back

Hoping one day he would hear me

Hoping one day he would listen

Daddy please come back. Don’t you think I deserve the chance to have you here?

Don’t you think I deserved the chance for you to love me?

Didn’t you even think I would want you here?

I wished you would have let me decide. Because I miss you everyday

The only thing is I miss you for selfish reasons

I don’t like mommy's new husband. He makes me sick. I wish they would break up.

You could have been my place to get away

I could have come live with you and visit her on the weekends

But my place to get away left before I even had the chance to speak

My first words were daddy where did you go?

I was so smart. Maybe you would have been proud of me

Daddy why did you leave and never come back

Why did you take your heart and bury it deep in your chest

Making sure I felt all the pain that you had buried deep

Was I crazy for thinking that you would even really love me?

I didn’t have a father because I’d been outnumbered

But it’s ok you're forgiven

You're forgiven even though I still write about the pain that you caused

What you did would have broken any normal person

But not me...It made me greater and stronger too

 

Author's Note

My dad left when i was younger so this is me expressing to you how it feels to not know him.

Reviews

[Cosmic Dreamer]

I would like to say how deeply sorry I feel for you. I won't say I understand, because I don't. Um... I don't really know what to say that will give this poem the praise it deserves or how to say how sorry I feel for you. But I hope that you get to meet your Dad one day and that he will make you feel whole. God bless you

[Rayanna]

Thank you for feeling sorry for me...but it isnt necessary at all. I feel alot better that i got some of this stuff off of my mind. I appreciate your review too. Thanks.And God bless you too.