Cold of Death

is death the only way to end this pain?

I felt like a stranger in my own head

Not able to grip control of these thoughts

Feeling the breeze of death sipping through my veins

Numbing the pain of life, wanting life to end

Feels like my heart carries the aching world

So heavy, barely holding on

 

My mind angers my heart

For Piling up problems that were unnecessary

And like time had not lived its life

So as life runs out of its time

I was on the verge of letting go

For everything seems so heavy to bear

 

My mind eloped with my spirit

Coming back with these deeper thoughts

Thoughts of how’s and why’s of life

Darkness creeps into my very soul

Cutting it with icy sharpness

Blankets of winter breeze in my heart

 

 

Is it now?

Was it yesterday?

Will it be tomorrow?

To see my self-sailing

To feel the cold within

Is this the only way to end this pain?