My Selas Flower

My heart is only able to open rarely, and it chose you.
My heart found you and it didn't just open it blossomed.
Never has someone elevated and healed me like you.
You were my best friend and lover.
I thought it was the same for you.

But........ then you threw me away.
It made me feel like I wasn't good enough.
It made me feel like you thought I was a narcissist.

I was just so heartbroken.
I was just trying to understand.
I was just trying to be open and honest, not manipulate you with guilt.
And I was just trying to be compassionate.

I know I should have respected your boundaries better.
That there are many other things I did wrong.

You'll always be the fire in my heart and hands even if we never cross paths again.

You'll always be the flower that grew in the dark and blossomed in the light to me.

I hope you understand I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart.

I dont expect you to care but I've forgiven you.

I just wish one day you'll forgive me too.