Storm in my Soul

Everyday I hear their voices in my head.

Asking for justice. 

Asking for vengeance.

Asking why....

They constantly call out my name.

Some days the volume is louder than others.

I'm not crazy. 

I'm just guilty.

Its guilt that drives the storm on the horizon.

A storm forever threatening to crash into me at any moment.

I've lived in fear of it everyday.

Afraid it would wipe me away

Afraid I deserve it.

I've learned to lean into the fear

To lean into the storm.

To own the storm.

To be the lightning in the rain.