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I wish I was young again.

I want to be good looking.

I would like to have cool friends and drink hot exotic coffees at foreign cafes.

I want there to be more time, time with my children, time with my wife, time with best friends, pets that have come and gone.

I wish I was healthy and not terminal.

I don't want to be tired all the time.

 I want more tattoos and a piercing.

I want to wear brainy looking hip glasses and wear sock caps even in the summer.

 I want to speak a different language fluently.

 I want to spend euros just to feel more European.

 I wish I was a better singer.

 I wanted to be a great lover and a better friend.

I wanted fame and fortune.

I want to eat healthier.

 I wish I had a good job.

I want to be loved.

I needed to feel less lonely.

I want to hug more.

I want to meet strangers and turn them into friends.

I wish there was more of me to go around. 

I want to work hard and play harder and be rewarded for my efforts.

I want to breathe naturally.

I wanted to be a better son.

I wanted the truth and I wanted to make up things for when the truth was to much for me to bear.

 I wish I had life long friends.

I wish I wasn't overweight. 

I wish, just once, I had a girl obsess over me and stalk me, just a little.

I want holidays to be with family.

I wish I lived with my children.

I wanted someone there for me.

I needed someone there for me.

I want treatments to hurt less.

I want to feel more... life.

I wish there was a cure.

I needed to be free.

I lost my idea of freedom.

I wish I could change.

I wanted to be much, much more.

But this is it. I am just me. It is all I have.

Reviews

[Matt Sayer]

This is so incredibly stirring and personal, Raymond. We all want so many things, many of them immaterial in the grand scheme of existence. But some, some things we wish for because they would make the world a greener pasture, a more bountiful garden for all to stroll. Your words and your inflection lend so much emotion to the despair of desire, the pain of the unobtainable. Truly heartfelt and resonant, Raymond. Well done :)

[Ben Rogers]

This is touching and would be difficult for someone not to relate to on one level or another.

[Angel Criner]

Wow... this must have taken handfuls of courage to write... not only did you write... but you spoke. I don't think it's fair that I actually heard your piece and read the rest... Feeling through the way one speaks as well as what they speak is a heart tugger, lol... thank you for sharing. Be strong and hopefully you have a lovely day.

[:o]

Incredible poem. There are tears in my eyes after hearing this. Your voice is reminiscent of Bukowski to me but your story is unique, passionate and so moving. Well done.

[Ruth]

I always love spoken word, much enjoyed...you have moved me :) Yes..superb!
And to top it off, we are all reminded here to remember what we have...not what we want, so damn important! For that matter, we are reminded what we want isn't always what we need!
Excellent piece and deliverance...Happy New Year :) x

[MsJewel]

Your words are quite powerful Raymond. Love the entire poem, but the last few lines are perfect!

:) Julie

[Robert Lindsay]

That's a heck of a good speech. heartfelt, honest, stirring.

But this is it.
I am just me.
It is all I have.

Great ending.

[Bob Sherunkle]

Great write Raymond. Thoroughly enjoyed it.The audio was great

[MOON]

Poignant , lovely write, all your dreams laid bare. Moving.

[Trevor Barnett]

I could feel your emotion in your words Raymond! The hope, fear, sadness, regrets, and melancholy was real to me! Excellent job Raymond!

[FlatLineBeauty]

This was powerful and emotional and the way you read it. I could just feel it in your voice. My mind is just blown away. xo Winter