You're not who I thought you once were

A poem about my father and I.

There's been something I've needed to say,

But every time I try my breath is taken away.

I want to tell you how I feel.

But when I'm with you it doesn't seem real.

I don't like my reality,

I don't like the truth.

I just want my Daddy,

is that so hard to ask?

I don't want the pain, you've given to me,

A twisted birthday present and it's free.

You say you love me,

But don't you see the pain?

My heart is seeping it,

Its crying.

My eyes have seen rivers,

Blinding my sight.

I just want my Daddy for one night.

This man I see, infront of me,

Is not the man you used to be.

You used to be my Daddy,

My hero too.

But you blew it.

Look at you.

Look at the scars, across my beating heart.

If you saw the scarring, you'd be surprised that I'm still alive.

All the tears I've cried,

All the scars I've carried.

And they run  and hide.

As soon as you are by my side.

I just want to open up and tell you the truth.

Tell you, I don't want you in my life anymore.

All you cause is pain.

I want you to know, what I feel inside.

My feelings, which I've hidden in a box, deep inside.

Why do I feel, like I have to hide?

Your my Daddy,

I know he's still in there, deep inside.

Why is he hiding?

Where has he gone?

Remember when life was so simple, so pure?

Now look at the scars that have been thrashed against my chest.

My heart is still beating.

I'm still believing.

You say you love me,

But your actions say you don't.

Don't believe me?

Just ask the little girl inside.

"I just want my Daddy,

is he in there somewhere?"

You say that you know me,better than anyone else.

But why can my friends see my scars,

But you just see me.

You don't know me.

Not anymore.

You lost that privilliage when you walked out that door!

So when you see me, packing up my bags and moving away, out of your life.

Just put yourself in my shoes, 4 years ago, when you did the same to me.

A little girl needed her Daddy,

But you shut the door.

I just hope you know,

What goes around, comes around.

And now it's your turn!

Reviews

[Sunset Girl]

I hope you are able to tell this to him one day, a little girl always needs her daddy. Good luck and keep strong.

[Soul Fire]

Thank you for your review.