Lies become my Truth

When Will I learn?

That when I put myself out there,

I'll just get burned.

Don't tell myself otherwise.

I get hurt,

As if it were a surprise to me.

It's happened before,

Why do I bother?

Why don't I just shut the door?

I should have known,

I should  have realized,

that you a liar,

But at the same time you are my deepest desire.

You set me on fire.

You are a murder for hire.

What happened to the man I thought you were?

Why do I always get burned?

I hide away in my shell,

Silence could never tell.

I'm hidden away from the world's eyes.

And then  I'm preyed on,

But the devil's cries.

I  just want to be left alone.

Let me be myself.

Alone.

Leave me be.

I just want to be me,myself and nobody else.

But when I go and put myself out there.

I get hurt,

I get burned.

It's not a surprise.

I should have learned.

That people's words are ugly,

People's desires are strange,

People's needs for hire.

Do not mix up need with desire,

it'll put you on fire.

Do not leave me alone.

I need someone.

But I'm afraid.

Is that okay?

I'm not alone..

But even when I am not alone,I feel alone.

Do you understand how I feel?

Peel the layers of my fears.

Do not leave me astray.

I'm just very afraid.

Fear cuffs me to what could never be.

Fear hides me away from the world.

I am chained in my own body's prison.

When will I have risen?

I just want to be myself,and nobody else.

But the criticizer and hypocrites 

Are so full of it.

but lies to me,become the truth.

Beat me up,

I am too easily forgotten.

Do not forget me,

Do not leave,

I'm sorry,

I'm maddening,

I'm falling to pieces,

But I won't say.

I'm okay.

But Don't believe the lies I speak.

I'm really falling to pieces.

Do not leave me alone.

I know I am difficult,

But don't leave me alone.

Don't believe my ``I'm Okay.''

Just hold me tight and don't go away.

Silence the lies I speak to you.

I just hope you know that I love you.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Easy to twist up the truth and lies. I like the flow of thoughts and how you fell into the surprise ending. Sometime we accept less and hope for a miracle. Thank you for sharing the excellent poem.
Coyote

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

Really captures that yearning for love, deep and real love, the line about even when not alone feeling alone captures it to a T.
Awesome poem :)

[Steven Cash]

Very good read. It's hard at times to admit your shortcomings.