Focus

I’m swimming in my thoughts, lost in my own mind

I try to focus

Focus Rachael, Focus

I try

My mind wanders again

There you lay in a gown of blue in a sterile room all alone, machines buzz and beep all around you and people rush in and out

Inhale

Exhale

Good

It’s getting stronger

Rachael, Focus

I look back to the task at hand but I can’t quite get my mind back on track

My other family needs me to be focused; I can’t

You’re in the hospital

I can’t wrap my mind around it

How did this happen? What went wrong?

Focus

My mind comes back to the real reason I’m here: support, I’m here to support them

In a theoretical world I could walk a mile to save a life, but in real life it doesn’t work like that

In real life a person can be fine one night and then be rushed to the emergency room the next morning, in real life a person can cough and their lung can collapse and there’s nothing they can do but hope the doctors can help

They can do nothing but focus on breathing

Inhale

Exhale

Good

Except it’s not good

When a person relies on only half of one of their essential organs, it’s not good

I suppose I can’t complain because I’m not the one who can’t breathe and I’m not at the hospital

And I also can’t complain because I’m not the parent whose youngest child is in the hospital; I’m not the parent who has to celebrate a birthday without their son

Focus

Inhale

Exhale

Good

I push open the door and walk in to see you

Focus

Reviews

[fadingtale]

I love the narrative and the ending! Truly beautiful! Thank you for submitting for all about love contest!

[Tony Jordan]

This is such an admirable vocation.
It also gets overlooked a lot.
In this you open the reader's eyes to the reality behind those smiling helpful faces who are taken for granted.
Absolutely well done RayLynn.