Changes.

Going through some gear shifts..needed to let it out.

I had everything planned.
Everything.
The University, the classes, the requirements, the time.
Everything.
Planned to a perfect, ironed “T”.

One field trip.
One Saturday.
It changed.
Everything...changed...
F**k.

There went the thought.
There went the University.
There went the nights of planning,
Researching, building up the excitement
All gone because of a few words.

"...Technical Theatre scholarship..."
"Not that hard to get a job doing lights, just call this number."
But if I call that number,
If I get accepted with the scholarship
Everything I planned will change.

5 steps forward towards one major
20 jumps back towards the other major
The dream overriding the reality
Can I do both?
Can I handle the polar-opposite jobs?

Am I ready to accept the challenge?
Am I ready to take the steps towards that?
Scholarship, job, future...
Can I stay here that long?
Am I strong enough to try?

I've been presented with opportunities,
Can I really accept the challenge?


 

Author's Note

I'm going through some changes in careers...I'm really confused so, I thought I should write it out. It's a little rusty...I haven't written in a long while. "/ Maybe I should clean my pens off?

Reviews

[Jessica M.]

opportunities are scary
and people are indecisive.
i've already changed my major three times and i'm in my freshman year.
good luck!
:]