Pain

Pain

I feel it, I live it, it’s a part of me, 

Not just physical but emotional, 

sometimes its too much to bare,

To deal I shut people out, keep to myself, I don’t want to be bothered

It wears a mask that’s plastered with a smile so people wont notice but I know the truth ,

I look in the mirror to only see eyes of sorrow looking back

I stare and stare and look and look to try and find a hint of a smile but it can never be found.

Its lived in me for years now, making an appearance on a daily basis but it wont go away no matter how much I beg, cry, or plead with it to.

And that mask? yea ive been noticing it wearing off lately, I guess its getting tired of living in the shaddows 

Its starting to show itself as anger, as me being mad at the world

But really all I want to do is cry, I just want someone to understand where Im coming from, 

Someone who wont judge me but will listen and maybe give an encouraging word or two. 

And no im not asking for a pitty party, im just asking for someone, anyone to show that they care. 

This ray of light that Ive been seeing shows itself every once in a while but the closer I move towards it the farther it moves back, I think its playing tricks on me; trying to brerak me down even more. 

I tried meditating but that only made me deal with my problems in the silence of a room for 20 min which hurt more than helped.

 Maybe one day that ray of light that I keep seeing at the end of that long tunnel will stop moving and allow me to land a foot in it, just the tip,

 even if only for a second I get to experience happiness

Author's Note

I promise all of them wont be be downer, bare with me :-) THX for reading and dont forget to comment

Reviews

[Calissa Knox]

It hurts more than anything when you just want to cry, but can't. When emotions are imprisoned in the depths of your soul, and no matter what you do, you can't make someone understand. When you give everything you have, but end up feeling empty and alone. I know these feelings very well because I've been there.

This is a beautiful expression of the emotions from deep inside of you. It latched on to my soul, and kept me reading, until the very end. This poem is real and from your heart. It is a true work of art, and it is absolutely beautiful.

[A wright]

thank you so much

[Calissa Knox]

You're very welcome, Rashell!