China down below

But oh how times have changed  What you once came home to You can never go back to  You are lost You are lawless This is life  Welcome to the great parade  You will learn to know the absence of another as the cold that kindled fire  Night after night as you lay in the dark dreaming of something more beautiful  Than what you could see with your eyes shut Night after night you hoped it would come to you  And when it did it was naked and trembling A half baked surrender of a cause lost to no one Because no one had faith to begin with  And you drained the blood from your whips and your legs  And you wobbled knocking knees in the wind like a fake heiress China doll  Until you climbed up the boulder where the maggots were writhing in all of your overseen place  and threw yourself off soundlessly and smashed on the ground into a million pieces you were fake and you were wilting, and every part of you knew it.  the birds came to greet you and picked you up like bread crumbs And flew away to somewhere they thought would have a better sunrise But when they realized no matter where they went  It was still glass in their beaks Hurting their language and breaking their voices  They threw you into the sea the water smashed against your ribs like cool ash on acid  like your throat on a cold day  eyes watering and mouth filthy and burning  you were China at the bottom And China down below And no human can ever dive that deep Without their head completely imploding (like that cartoon you once saw where his head was blown off and the blood looked like candy rain) And so You will never feel the warmth of another or be cradled in someone's hand You will know no one  You are sparkling and broken And you will be eroded by the great rhythm of the waters And the depth pressing down on you The hollowness and loneliness will erode you more than anything though, You are lost no one cares to find you You are lawless (well the sea cannot be ruled, you fool)  You are nothing.... And night after night you will still think about it, while we also lay awake, waiting