Nom de Plume

i had always thought it would be somehow easier or more liberating to write under a different name, like expectations would be different and i could let my guard down if no one knew it was me behind the words. i always struggled though, because i wanted anything i write to preserve a piece of me, and if i became someone else, i might lose that. i guess it's unavoidable, though. even if a person tried, i don't think they could take themselves totally out of anything they wrote. it would be like the wizard of oz, the curtain pulled back easily and there i am left standing and stuttering and nervously trying to pull the curtain back.

thinking of a name should be easy, anything is more memorable than engebos. not sure what direction i would go, though. something badass like dick winchester, or david fister. maybe something uppity like pierre something or other. in the end, it's not the name, it's the audience.

there's no need to look in the mirror. if you can write like yourself, you have a good audience. if you are holding back and the words are coming out of you as easily as you can swallow skunk liver, you have the wrong audience. choose your audience well.