If Only They Saw Too.

I can see it. So should you...

I want to be alone. So alone.

As long as I am alone the wall is up 

A barrier protecting from a world I do not want to baptize myself in. 

My heart pounds

Gallops like a horse racing to the finish line carrying weight

A weight that is suppressing a power they are praised to be strong for.

The sun weakens my body

I fight to feel healthy 

to feel alive 

when i just want to crawl into a deep rabbit hole 

At least it’s cold in there

Or so appearances seem. 

Digging the hole deeper 

running from the reality that is creeping closer. 

Stay away I scream

My throat is hoarse 

The tears fall down my face. 

It's muscular hand grabs hold of me. 

Dragging me into a world I've been fighting to leave. 

Just abandon me. 

Forget me. 

I am not worthy of any kind of recognition.