Losing

I’ve been walking these thousand and thousand miles since I was born

And though I’m still young my feet start to get sour

And my head feels like it’s going to explode

With all this research that’s going on

- In my head -

They say if you have faith

You can have it all,

But they were wrong.

I tried my hardest to look

Beyond the stars

Trying to get a peek into

What he was doing up there,

Trying to understand what was the thing

That kept him so busy

And not letting him be who he supposed to be.

Damn, I wanted so hard to believe

What my mama always told me

That angels are watching over me,

But as much as I wanted all these

All I could feel was something

Constantly grabbing my feet,

Dragging me through my hallway,

Dragging me down on my stairways,

Down in my basement and lock me there

And this time unfortunately not literally.

Damn again, I wish down there could be a real monster and eat me,

But all I can see are boxes of toys from when I was a kid.

Damn three times in a row how I wish You could be real to me

And calm all the pain down, do nothing but your job

Like saving people and not like letting them down.

And I’ll be damned, I would pray to You in sickness and in health

But because everything is in vain and You obviously

Don’t care about me and my dear ones

I’ll start walking other thousand and thousand miles forward,

Maybe after we’re all dead You’ll want to shine.

Author's Note

no pun intended

Reviews

[Chris]

Strong words, strong thoughts...

Chris

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Beautiful! This poem has a great sense of longing. Loved it :)

[Daniel88Batson]

Gorgeous. The ideas of pain and sorrow bleed through the artery's of this poem as we touch the scars of this character.
Completely agree with the below comment by 'InYrDreams'.
Well done.

[Becky C Strukamp]

An amazing poem of sadness and longing. Very well penned. Reminded me of a song, the lyrics went something like, "Sad how when you're dead, people start listening"