Him

This poem is what I wrote after me and my boyfriend broke up and we went to a "friendship" level.

I can't keep all these secrets in any more, Its time to break free, But I can't, I have no hope, Something holds me back from showing the real me, I don't know why, I don't know at all. Is it him that makes me feel this way? Is he the one who makes me hate him so? Sometimes it seems that way, He drives me insane sometimes..

I always see him, his eyes are like the sun, blinding me with its light.

His smile is like this force that seems to push me farther and farther away. 

When ever he sees me its like he doesn't see me at all, is he afraid of what we have and what we had and what we could of had, or what we should of had.. This whole thing confuses me more and more. and the more I see him around other girls the more I have the sudden urge of jealousy. But I guess i have to move on don't I? Isn't it hard to move on sometimes? To me, I believe so. One day I'm going to slap him, maybe that will wake him up or push him farther away. But who knows?? I definitely don't, thats for sure. This whole entire thing with ex's kind of suck but... To me, Its like a mystery...slowly unfolding.

Author's Note

Thanks for reading this! uhmmm, i don't think I messed up in anything but tell me what you think of this..

Reviews

[*~Kristy~*]

This made me sad, and I agree with Kit Kat, deep feelings. But, it's very well written, and I'm sure it conveyed how you feel as well. It's really good.

[deeps]

Sounds as if you have some deep feelings here. I am sorry for this.
Your write is ecpressive. Time will heal all wounds. But hey
slapping someone doesn't help but writing it out does. You did
that well.