Zeal

My heart drips with tears and aches with loneliness
Like a child dizzy and confused
Within my fever everything becomes clear
The fog cleanses my eyes
And I see my vision
The burning maroon pastels beneath my throbbing skull
Like cave paintings
Pictures of hatred and madness
Sorrow and burden
But most of all scriptures of loneliness
Nails burst through my cranium and dig deeper and deeper into my mind
Going further then just the surface
And penetrating away my pessimistic thoughts
Beautiful claws scratch away at the back of my eyes making my eyes water and burn
Silver chains wrap around my lungs making my breath uneasy and irregular
The coldness of no companion makes my body shiver and shake uncontrollably
The heaviness of unconsciousness takes over and I drift into a daze
Where I see beautiful, bold red skies
And vibrant purple grasses,
Rippling orange water
And bright yellow birds
Here, my fever clears
And I am unsure of everything
I don’t know if up is down or where is here or there
But here is where my future is told
And there is where I live my life
Fabricated beauty
Gilded artistry
Meretricious class
I miss you so
I want to return to where my heart beat begins
And run down the streets where my pulse scuttles
And I want to jump into your arms, and stay there forever, where it is what keeps my heart beating

 

Author's Note

don't mind how the beginning (first line) is kinda tacky, i wrote this when i had a fever and i was really missing my boyfriend cause i was out of state.