Nightmares

when you were a child did you believe your nightmares?

the ones your parents taught to you

or the ones you found in your own mind

I believed my nightmares

they were infact truth

each night I laid me down to sleep to find some one awakening me

each night my head went down to dream and awoke unto a vicious scene

he was scary and I was blind

unable to make the sound needed for a rescue

unable to feel the pain that would rush unto me in the mornings

i was lost in my head whilest my body lay in turmoil

screaming

screaming with every fiber

"Save me, Wake up, Realize, It's Not A Dream"

NOT A DREAM

NOT A DREAM

can you find me hidden in the sheets where I still lay to this day

The girl you see infront of you

she is the shell of the child who hides inside herself

until the morning that will never come

i am the trauma patient who never seeks help

i am the little girl who thinks it is her own fualt

i feel nothing because i cannot feel

i feel nothing because my life was taken from me long ago

because i am the little girl who awaits in the sheets hoping tonight

her nightmares will leave her be

hoping that tonight she can be free

Author's Note

2006