Alter ego

Alter ego
My alter ego is the devil
Me,myself, and him

I try to hide him
I act so pure
So clean

I fight him everyday
But I get tired
So he comes out

My strength crumbles before him
So strong
So bad
So wrong

He turns my thoughts to list
To greed
To porn

I try to fight him off
But he won't stop
I'm so scared
So lost
Because my alter ego is the devil

Maybe the problem is not devil
But me...

I'm the one who is so careless
With my actions
With my lust
And my temptations

So I crumble for god
Start with his foundation
So clean
So pure
So perfect

The next day I'm back out hacking at his foundation
Corrupting myself
Hurting myself

The devil is not my only problem
I am

Reviews

[Kupendwa]

You accidentally typed that your thoughts turn to list, fix it to lust. (:

I like this one. I like how you describe that you're hacking at his foundation. I seriously love that you realize we can't blame other people for our problems, even the devil. Much of our own problems come from within, from our own flesh. Realization is step one. Then we can begin to better ourselves. Someday you won't have an alternate ego. There will only be Kevin Patterson. Keep your eyes set on that.

[Radacach]

Thank you so much! Glad you liked it:)

[Radacach]

Hahah list thanks for the catch!! And thank you I try to focus on that everyday!!

[Kupendwa]

No problem! (:

[Annabelle Lee]

I'm not huge into religion but even so, this was great! Maybe rather than hacking at the old one or even trying to fix it, you should just move on to a different plot and build a new 'house' I know, easier said than done, right? I'm actually trying out my own fresh start right now and It's hard, really hard, but not impossible, you'll figure it out :)

[Lover Of Words]

So good!!!!

[char]

Fear the Devil? Come on! Everyone knows that man is the worst demon there is. I totally like the disjointed feel this piece has. Cool.

[James Hanna-Magill]

Dear Radacah,

I love this piece.

It is pure Robert Louis Stevenson, 'The Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde'.

Here are two lifts from his novella for your to ponder on:

"There was something strange in my sensations, something indescribably new and, from its novelty, incredibly sweet. I felt younger, lighter, happier in body; within I was conscious of a heady recklessness, a current of disordered sensual images running like a mill race in my fancy, a solution of the bonds of obligation, an unknown but not an innocent freedom of the soul.";

and more to the point

“My devil had long been caged and he came out roaring. I became, in my own person, a creature eaten up and emptied by fever, languidly weak both in body and mind, and solely occupied by one thought: the horror of my other self.”

The notion of our alter egos, our Dr Jekylls and Mr Hydes has always intrigued me.

You express your own in an honesty I admire.

I happen to be bipolar (so was Vincent van Gogh; I can't be in bad company though he cut off his ear and mine is still intact) so the ups and downs of mood and the saint and the devil inside intrigue me.

I have written a novel about it.

Should you ever get to the point of extreme boredom, it's called Split and I am drip feeding it bit by bit on here.

I am so glad you joined this site as am I. I like free thinkers.

An honest poem, accomplished, heartfelt and it works for me.

Keep on writing.

Take it from me it's the only way to escape all our own inner demons.

With my kindest regards

James

[EMMIE]

This is great! Love the flow of the poem, unique personification of the "dark" side of your character. We all have that side of us whether we are aware or not. Good stuff!