"happy"

Written January 14, 2013

As I lay in the puddle of tears on my bed

I feel so alive

My mask has been taken off

It's truly me

The words I speak are so me

Almost too me

There so unclean that they hurt my ears

When I wake up from my bed and head out to school

I turn around and grab that "happy" right off the shelf

Just hoping no one notices it's a mask

I look so calm

So collected 

You could never tell that on the inside are scars so deep

So alive

That i relive them everyday

But when I get home I open up your stories and feel so alive

How can I ever share myself with anyone

When can I trust people to love me for my scars

For my scars make me

But at one point they broke me

So when I close your book

I take off that mask

Smash it to pieces

I tell myself tomorrow I will be myself

When I get up I make a new mask

A better one

One that can't be broken

One that can hide anything

Maybe one day together we can break it

But for now I'm fine with always being "happy"

Reviews

[Lily Victoria]

"How can I ever share myself with anyone
When can I trust people to love me for my scars
For my scars make me
But at one point they broke me"

The crazy thing about having our own scars is showing other people that it's not just them in suffrage. They give people compassion to love each other, because they both see their own brokenness and choose to grow in each other. Great Job!

[Pretty_as_a_Poet]

ahhh.... I know what "happy" is like... good job

[EMMIE]

"happy" I've been there...it's not easy to be "happy" and I don't wish this "happiness" upon anyone. You are a bold poet! Keep doin ya thing ;p

[Fish]

Your poems are just, incredible. So real and relatable with beautiful words. I'd take more care in spell-checking your poems before posting; they're beautiful and flow but sometimes the grammar mistakes can take away from that.

[Radacach]

aw thank you very much!:) thanks for the advice!!

[ice skater]

I sometimes I feel the same way

[Annabelle Lee]

There so unclean that they hurt my ears
-They're
That i relive them everyday
-I

I, myself, am notorious for little grammatical errs in my writing and it's something you don't really take notice of until you read someone else's and are able to point out to them the same mistakes that you, yourself make. I could find no problems other than those, the ideas were exceptional.

[Radacach]

yeah i do tend to have some writing errors! thanks for the grammar fix!

[char]

Whoa. This is incredibly deep. It's well written and precise. It's simply perfect.

[Radacach]

thank you so much!!

[char]

You needn't thank me. You deserve such praise.

[Maya]

I really like this poem and can really relate. Sorry if this seems like a pointless review im not sure what to say other than I really enjoyed it.

[Radacach]

im very glad that you like it and i see how you can relate so can i!

[Maya]

i especially like "I tell myself tomorrow i will be myself" its perfect and says it all

[Radacach]

Thank you:)!! There was lots of emotion on this one! Glad you can see it!