Dropping Monsters

They watch me.

All day.

They are everywhere.

I hate them.

They want to kill me.

Please make them stop.

I can’t stand it anymore.

I am afraid for my life.

I tell myself they aren’t really there,

But they tell me they are.

I want to end it.

End them.

I need a way.

There must be a way out.

They won’t leave me alone.

I see them at every street corner, down every hallway.

I think I know the way out.

They tell me it’s the only way out.

I must believe them.

I don’t want to do it.

I have to do it.

I have to hurt myself.

It must become a compulsion.

One day, I must let it go too far.

I have to slip.

I don’t want to.

I wish for life.

I pray to some unknown god,

For another way to end this.

The answer never comes. I continue to hurt.

I realize they are right.

I must slip.

I must not cling to life.

I relinquish my hold,

And drop.