Back to the Beginning

really really really want to be okay,

I really really really dont want to feel this way.

Its all I can do not to break down and cry

I hate that im like this

I hate that I cant just be happy

Now is that even possible

When all I ever do is lie

It's so sad my heart cant contain it

All I ever do is make it worse

I'm so scared that I'll fail

Thats it's too late to make it better

I feel so dumb

It's just not right

Life's about money

Money I'll never have

Will I get it right this time

Or fall all the way back down

To the bottom of the barrel

All the way back to the beginning.

Reviews

[Bree]

Hon, this poem really made me stop and think about my life. I'm ridiculously afraid of failing and all the thoughts you've conveyed here are relate able.