Guilty Pleasures

Have you ever felt so guilty

for feeling so high

for talking to someone

and later asking why

you are in a relationship

you have been for a while

but you find someone else

whose number you long to dial

You want to be happy again

though it truly hurts to admit

you long for someone else

and you'd like to call it quits

but you look at your past

and you cant bring yourself to leave

What if this is as good as it gets

After all your worthless you believe

So you live your life day to day

While your inner demons you fight

You look for ways to be happy

Ways to make you feel bright

You feel so guilty for this pleasure

Even though it's nothing really bad

You find the ways to fill the gap

and wonder why you're so sad

It's a fight against your morals

You tug every which way

Wanting happiness and companionship

Is this where you should stay

2015

Reviews

[alifeacoustic]

I think a lot of people can relate to this situation of feeling unloved in a relationship that wouldn't have been, had you known what you know now. It is such a difficult and conflicting time to have your emotions split between what is and what could be. Do you walk away and start afresh or stay where you don't want to be. Difficult and confusing choice and impossible to give advice, other than to say the heart wants what it wants and no one should live in shadow.
Beautifully captured Rachael. Spoken in softly sighed whispers, dreamlike.

[Rachael Lea]

I wrote it off of sheer observation for someone and when I gave it to that person they seemed really shocked by the poem. I wanted to capture something that everyone could relate to at some point in time

[TheWynnedow]

This really captured the feeling of the end of a relationship. The relationship is safety and happy memories even though it has faded to nothing there is still the past. And the past is always there so they're struggling to make the decision to stay or go and the poem represented that perfectly. It's something that almost everyone can relate to. Great work!

[Rachael Lea]

Exactly that is what I was going for, I wanted everyone to know that they aren't the only ones who feel this way. Thank you so much. Your review means a lot to me!

[Mara]

wow another great poem, i feel i can relate to this one too,
thank you for sharing and putting my thoughts into words perfectly!:)

[Rachael Lea]

I am so glad that you like it. Thank you so much!