A Realization of Our Relationship

I guess I just don't care

Maybe I've lost that ability

I can feel some emotion

But right now, I can't identify it

I feel pity, definitely pity

I feel….

I want to cry

I want to rage

I want to scream

But those emotions

They're just not there

When did I become so... removed

Like the words I'm saying

They're not penetrating

Me, him, this wall

But... is it a wall?

Honestly, I don't know if there is one

Maybe I broke it; went to the other side and just... didn't care?

Didn't care… that's not right

Maybe I just didn't see what I wanted, needed

Maybe there was nothing and I was just fighting myself

I guess... I've stopped fighting myself