I'm Breaking

I’m Breaking

I’m running

And I can’t stop

I’ve tried so hard
But now that your back

It makes me run faster

You say you didn’t cheat

You’re a changed man

And that you want me back

Everything your saying

I want to believe so bad

More than anything

But I’m pulling away

Because I think about all you did

Even if you didn’t cheat

You still left me here alone

Without a goodbye

All I’ve been doing is leaking tears

Because my heart is so beaten

And my mind is tired

Both don’t know what they want

I’m falling away, I’m fading

This will either save me

Or tear me up even more

For the first time in my life

I don’t want to find out

Why did you have to come back

I was just healing, getting better

I felt I could breathe again

But now that you’re here

I forgot how to breath

Because I want to be in your arms again

But my heart is screaming no..

Everyone around me is too

Every time I see your name

Show up on my phone,

I break into pieces

I don’t answer for awhile

Makes you worry,

So you text and call more

How does it feel

Because you did it to me

You say I’m something special

And you made a huge mistake

But tell me something

If I was so special and great

Why did you leave in the first place

Nobody knows how much I loved you

I never said out loud

Now your telling me you always loved me

This is just too much for my heart..

My head isn’t on straight

I’m taking it day by day

But your not getting inside

Until I know its safe

Till then, I just don’t know..

Reviews

[Lauren Beth]

I can relate to the emotions you express here..I have experienced a similar situation and know how painful and detrimental to a person it can be. It is so hard to let your walls down after such emotional abuse. I can now say I worked through it and have a stronger, better than ever relationship with my husband, the love of my life. Great write!

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

People that have that effect on us are the ones we need to stay away from... I've been there myself.

[R J Askew]

It won't be safe. It never is. 'Comeback loves' seldom work. If they go once, they will go again. And so it will go on, one heartbreak after another. The guy knows you love him and want him. He wants to bask in this and enjoy the favours that go with it. But, often, he will have wanderlust and devilment in him. There will probably be others to love, to enjoy. And so it goes. I don't know what the solution is. But your poem sounds like the classic cry of a woman who is loyal to her heart and to the love she has felt, despite what her head screams at her. Some women have the most astounding loyalty to a past love which flares again, and again, until it finally exhausts them and leaves them feeling empty. There should be a word for the syndrome! Maybe there is and I just don't know it!

[Frantzuu]

you haven't been on here for a while, i've been waiting for this lol
great poem loved it!! :D

[HorrorMaster]

Very well written. I know you how you feel.

[deeps]

This is a well written emotional write here.

[N/A]

This is awesome,though..don't go back.I know how hard that is .
Wonderful poem,you managed to put so much into it.

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

you will do a huge mistake to get in again, I hope you will not do anything that will hurt you again

[ashley]

Don't listen to him! A cheater never changes... stay strong and hold out for a real man. One who won't leave you alone like he did. Great poem! :D