2:30am..

 

2:30am..

I sat in my car outside my house

It was 2:30am

Tears slowly came down

Then I kept on thinking about everything

And it just got worse

I was screaming really loud

My tears were drowning me

I couldn’t breathe anymore

So I just gave up and let it all out

I didn’t hold back anything

I screamed for you, Grandma.

I asked you to come help me

As I cried harder and louder

I wondered if you heard me

Or if you were there with me

I screamed out at you

Asking you why did you do this to me

You shouldn’t have came in my life

Because now all I am is hurt

Why did you disappear on me?

When I need you the most

I was always there for you

But the one time I need you

Your no where to be found

I hate you for making me this way

As I take a moment to breathe

I think of other things in life

The past overcomes me

I’m so scared of a relationship

So that’s why I pushed you away

I’m afraid of love

Because of the pain that follows it

When you kissed me

So much flashed through my head

And I ran for the hills

I get out of my car

I could barely walk to the door

I get inside and put my keys up

Then I rested my body on the counter

I felt so weak and the tears just poured out of me

I had to be quiet so I didn’t wake anyone

When I just wanted to crawl up next to my mom

And have her hold me tight

Instead I went into the bathroom

I looked into my deep red eyes

And I didn’t know who that girl was

I could barely look at me..

So confused and lost

I laid myself down in my bed

And stared at anything

I didn’t sleep at all

My cries weren’t heard

I hugged myself

And cried the night away..

Reviews

[Haifa]

I am sorry because you feel this way, sometimes I do feel that way too. You wrote it well as always and I like the way how describe where you were and how the tears fall and so on. At all, it is a great poem.
Well done

[ashley]

Wow. This is so painful. I can feel everything. Very well written, great job! :D

[HorrorMaster]

wow I feel the same way with my grandma passed away. *hugs you* nice poem.

[Bud]

I hurt for you... Your grandma will always be with you. Remember that. It may not be in the capacity you would like, but she is there in your mind. Just talk to her there, and she will respond. You know how she talked, the things she said. So, anytime you need her, just ask her in your mind. And see what she has to say. I do this with my grandfather.
We all shy away from pain. But what if we never lit a fire, because we were afraid of getting burned? We wouldn't have any light in the darkness, no cooked food, and no heat to stay warm...
Again, you have laid yourself out there, Kylie. Outstanding work.

[Elanra]

Wow... this is painfully beautiful... Such deep emotions... very good descriptions. I can feel the anger, the pain, the loneliness and the injustice in all of it...

Very good my friend. God knows we all have those nights... And you described it for all of us.. Well done.

[deeps]

Wow! this is quite the write you have going on right here. I think this is amazing and quite powerful. I liked this full of emotion.