Happy, Disappointed, Proud, Or Ashamed

I'm proud. I really am.. But I'm scared of failure..

Happy, Disappointed, Proud, Or Ashamed
I seen it sitting on the counter..
The white envelope that
I’ve been waiting to receive..
I looked at it for a minute,
Scanned the address,
I knew exactly what it was..
I turned it around torn the opening
And there it was…
My diploma and degree
From graduating college..
I didn’t know how to feel,
Happy, disappointed, proud, or ashamed
Happy because I did it..
Disappointed because I’m not where I should be..
Proud because I put my all in graduating and doing my best..
Ashamed because I work at a stupid sandwich place..
I put it in my frame and just took the time to look at it
I about broke down while staring at it..
My heart sank because all my emotions were everywhere
Then my mom came over and looked at it too,
She gave me a hug and said that she is so proud of me..
And my dad told me too..
Hearing that makes me feel good,
But the thoughts of failure is still imprinted in my mind..

Reviews

[Matthew V. H.]

don't be afraid of the future. you will make your own future. the only thing that needs to be said to you is this:

CONGRADULATIONS!!!!!!

cole-

[C.J.]

congrats thats a huge thing to do dont dwel on the matter take what was givven to you and think of it as the best possible set of events because it can always be worse.
always with love CJ

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

I AM PROUD OF YOU !.... you had made it, no matter what you do now, you have made the dreams of so many girls that cant or not able to do what you did.... you are still so young, you will find the right place to work in, and you will make people so happy with your food... I trust you, I know you will Yossi

[Gravedigger]

You can onyl fail if you had gotten a better job and blown it..just because your dream job hasnt begun yet, or even moved up, doesnt mean you have failed...what you have done is no easy thing. As it is, I myself will not be able to finish college to become what I truly want to be for a long time. You should feel proud of all that hard work you put into it..the rest will come with time. Have faith, and never stop trying. As for being dissapointed..I guess this is coming from someone who practically lived in a fast food joint, but things could be much much worse off! Dont worry..and see what tomorrow brings!