My REAL first Time
Walking up to the hotel room
My heart beating faster with every step
Finding no reason to turn back
Laying on the bed
He kisses me on my lips
Holding my body with his strong arms
He slowly takes off my shirt, then my bra
Kissing my breasts and stomach
Whispering in my ear
Asking if I am ok..
Caring for what I feel inside
Reaching for my belt and unbuttoning my pants
Off go my pants and underwear
I am fully naked on the bed,
Next he takes his pants and boxers off
Enjoying the sight of both of our bodies
He begins to move his hands lower
Asking if I wanted to have him inside of me
I said yes, and he began
Kept asking if I were ok
Going really slow
It hurt and I told him it did
And he stopped, immediately
Some points it didn’t hurt, so we kept going
Afterwards, he held me in his arms
Making sure I am alright
And not letting me go
Then a day later,
We make love again,
It was much better, because I am getting use to it
What we have is beautiful in everyway
I do not regret doing it,
I didn’t cry afterwards,
I wasn’t freaking out
And all I have is better memories
Letting go of that one scar that hurt me deeply..
Forgetting that moment and gaining this one..
I love you, Babe.