Frustration

I'm trying to make it....

Frustration

I try so hard

My heart feels like exploding

I keep taking deep breaths

To keep me calm

To stop the tears from falling

Whatever I do, its never good enough

I work as hard as I can

So much my bones ache

If you need me, I’m there

If you want me, I stay

If you need me to work a split shift, I do

But what do you do to me..

Cut my hours,

Don’t pay me enough

Get mad at me for your mistakes

I’m trying so hard to work somewhere else

But its not easy in the culinary field

I look at my bank account

I’m barely making it..

I hate asking for money

But I’m going to have to…

I’ve failed again…..

I try not to cry

But so much frustration and stress

Builds up in me and all I can do is cry

When will I dig myself out of this hole…

Reviews

[JadedSparrow]

I know what you mean dear friend. I try so hard to keep a light heart, only to find myself drowning in a puddle of my own tears. Life is really beating down on me, so I guess thats why I can relate to this peice in particular. As Dani said though, you have not failed. You are just struggling like alot of us do. Our pride makes us feel like it is wrong to ask for help. That isnt the case. What else are we here for if not to help each other in times of need. A wonderful write as always. I know I asked you this before, but do me a favor and smile for me...

JS

[Chuck]

its so strange that i would read this today, because i have been going through something similar. i think this is well written, and i am glad i had the chance to come across it

-Chuck

[Dani California]

No dear -- this isn't failure. You are way too hard on yourself. You can only fail if you never try. It's easy for me to say it will all be ok, and I know it will, if you keep pushing for it. But, often we don't want to hear those words because of the frustration you are speaking of. They just further frustrate us sometimes and they sound empty because we can't quite see them. Yet. They aren't. Keep striving for greatness -- and it will come. Faith, patience, endurance, perseverance.

Well written my friend.

[Matthew V. H.]

you will get out as soon as you get that certificate. that culinary degree will get you into some of the best resturants in vegas, trust me, just hold on a bit longer!

you'll make it!

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

Very well written poem. My daughters are in similar situations. It is so darn hard to make ends meet. Hope you get that raise. Thank you for sharing. Debileah

[unspokenguilt]

Take a breather...know your good at what you do and if others don't see that it's their fault.
things will get better just you wait and see don't let people get to you and always fight for what is yours.
:)
much love best wishes elyssa

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Ah, sweetheart . . . what a terrible place to be . . .

I know. Been there, done that. Was a single mom once, trying to hold down two jobs, just to pay the rent and buy diapers.

I'm not a Bible beater, but one thing I have learned is to have faith. Prayer is a huge part of that, regardless of religion or belief. Prayer works miracles. I would not be here, if I didn't know this to be absolutely true.

Hang on, sweetness. I believe that things will get better. And, I'll be holding you in my bedtime prayers, tonight.

Your poem truthfully expresses the "frustration" and desperation that must be felt. Don't ever be afraid to ask for help. One day, you will be able to help others, in return.

~warm hugs~