Inexperience

I can still smile and say I am smart. =) People under 18, please BEWARE.

Inexperience

When it comes to sex

I don’t have a clue to what it is

What its suppose to feel like,

Why its so special,

Or what I’m suppose to do…

Its probably why I got played

Such an easy target

He looked at me like fresh meat

It took him awhile to get in

But he finally got me

But that’s besides the point

What I do know is

Its not suppose to feel

The way I felt that night

Freaked out, scared, and hurt..

And left on the side of the road..

No one knows what really happened that night

We just had sex.. But that’s not it..

I can call myself inexperienced

But I do know what happened was wrong..

Young people can come to me and ask what is sex

And all I got to say is

Don’t do it until your ready..

And when your ready

You will know what sex is..

People tell you to do it, do it, do it

But when you do,

They look at you like you’re a s**t..

That’s why I never listened to anyone..

Besides the lies I was fed by the infection

I was always pressured to have sex

But how could I when I wasn’t in love..

I just thought I was

Until he lied, tricked and stole my heart

But I’m over it now

The scars are still locked inside of me..

They were opened, bloody wounds

Until someone healed them with his charm

Such a gentleman, I’ll tell ya…

He laughs at me when I tell him I don’t know sex much

At least he didn’t think I’m a loser.

All I know is, he is waiting until I am ready

And no guy has ever done that for me.

Although I am inexperienced

I can still smile and say I am smart. =)

Reviews

[Spoken]

glad you've found someone who i'm sure will make it special for you when the time is right. thanks for sharing!

[C.J.]

wow talking like this makes you want to be that guy that waits for the girl to be ready good write like always you never fail to make stuff that just comes off the paper good job!!

[unspokenguilt]

Such a great write, thanks for sharing!

It's nice to know your healing as i hoped you would...in time. You're very smart, a great person and a great writer! It's great you found someone to help you through the time.
the healings on the inside, find it in yourself and know it's true.

:)

[darkgurl]

This is a well thought out write, and very intersting...Kim

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

what a good poem Kylie, you are doing such good , we talked about your experiance , I hope i did helped a bit, I can really understand your frustration but this is only a bad experiance, you will love and be love so much in your life cause you are so special women. keep on that way Yossi

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I tell you . . . my face went from shock . . . to sadness . . . grief . . . and then, suddenly . . . a smile.

I'm sorry that your first experience was horrid . . . yes, you are so smart to know that is not how it is suppose to be. And I give you huge high-fives, for holding onto what you have learned, and not letting it happen, again.

As women, we give so much of ourselves, into the "experience" whereas men (boys) are completely physical.

I applaud your bravery in this piece. But most of all, I am giving you a standing ovation for your strength and awareness, in spite of such an ordeal. Your portrayal is beyond magnificent.

You are a strong and amazing woman. Never doubt that.

Brava!

[Sean M. Addams]

VERY INTERESTING AND DEEP PIECE ..... LOTS OF THOUGHT PUT INTO THIS.... IMAGERY IS VERY VIVID IN THIS ... NICE JOB ON THIS ONE!!!!