Struggling With Life

The title explains it all...

 

Struggling With Life

Every time things are going ok

Something always hits me

And knocks me to the ground

When my family seems to get settled down

Something else gets us to fall..

The fighting is what is tearing us apart

And keeping me here is taking my dreams away..

I want a future, not be a failure….

I can’t find anything to make me happy

To make me wake up each morning

And want me to start my day

To work at a place that I want to be at

To be in a kitchen doing the things I love..

The job I have now.. Its not for me…

Even if they promote me.. I want out…

The pain still remains inside of me

Dealing with all the broken pieces

Trying to hard to put them back together

I’m ruining everyone around me

I destroy everything I touch

But I didn’t deserve this much hurt

Or did I…

I hate knowing I can fall in seconds

And not being able to catch myself..

Shutting everyone out that I love

When all they are doing is trying to help

This is one thing you cannot help me with

I have to mend my heart on my own

But I am lost on how to do that

I have found a new love

And I don’t want to push him away

As much as I want him to stay

I can’t tear him away from his home

He has a life there..

Its going to be so hard living without him here

It is now, but its better for me to live with myself

I could never take him away like that

I just hope I don’t regret it..

He deserves so much more..

But he would shut me up in a heart beat

Struggling with life each day that goes by..

Still fighting in the battle

And when I begin to lose

I get my strength to make it through

Even if it tears me apart..

Reviews

[Marvin Lewis Jr.]

I like this one a lot!
A wonderful depiction of struggle written from a mature point of view.

I enjoyed reading!

[C.J.]

very good and well thought thru

[unspokenguilt]

very good!

life is a struggle but no matter how prepared we are or not its better to live it, sure it may be tough...nothings tougher but i have to believe that something good will come of it, one could only hope
keep your head up and your friends close and u'll pull though...i hope the best for you

[JadedSparrow]

We all struggle my friend. Life is about struggle. Whether to get out of bed when the alarm clock goes off or to hit the snooze button. Should I have regular or decaf coffee. Should I slit my wrists or try to make it through another day. From the most profound, right on down to the least important, life is about struggle. Know that you are not alone my friend. I am always here to listen, and help where I can. This piece speaks of your constant battle. From what I know of you, you will prevail. Well written...

JS

[Matthew V. H.]

this is a good narrative on how you feel. I can see how confused you feel, but you have to get all your feelings and emotions in the right place before anyone else can make you happy.

Once you can make yourself happy, it's all cake from there. Trust me.