I was sitting at home in the kitchen
And I see you were pouring Vodka into a shot glass
You were chasing it with a energy drink
You looked at me and asked if I wanted a shot
I told you no and you had a disappointed stare..
I asked you what is wrong
And you said that you wanted someone to drink with
I still declined the request because I simply don’t drink like that..
And you being my brother you should have known
About an hour goes by and I hear him go outside
I’m praying that he doesn’t get in his car..
I hear his engine start
And my heart dropped from my chest
I wanted to run out to the street
And stand in front of your car
And say take my life
Before you take your own and someone else’s..
When I got to the door you were already gone..
I wanted to pick up my phone and call you
But you just wouldn’t listen to me
I laid in my bed that night
Worried and scared
Hoping you are okay..
I see lights flash in my room
It was you
And I finally could breath again..
I said a prayer to God
Thanking him for looking after you
But I know deep down in my heart
That this was not the first time
And I am scared to death that this is not the last..
And I am not the one to stop you….