Friend For Sale

this is how it goes: 

 

i wish i could cut you with my words. 

 

i want the kick they give to your stomach

to hit you so hard that all the lies you've swallowed about me,

come crawling up your throat and tumbling to the ground.

 

right in front of me. 

 

i want to be a mind-reader, to know all your thoughts,

uncensored and unkind, 

so i can know exactly what you've thought of me all this time

and not just the "truths" you've told.

 

i want to be over you, and i almost am,

except i’m not.

because there’s the voice in the back of my mind that tells me
“she’s not all bad, she was your best friend for Christ sake”

 

and then I remember.

 

remember, remember, remember.

 

all the things that you’ve said, and the story you’ve twisted,

and they way your name sort of rhymes with failure so i guess i shouldn’t try,

and how even though you wasted a couple years of my life,

 

a part of me still loves you like the sister you promised to be.

 

and even though i would really, really, really like to sell every memory i have of you to the nearest hobo sitting on the street (for free),

i realize that, without you, i would have never turned into the person i am today.

 

so, on the off chance that you read this,

(we’re still friends on this website after all)

I want you to know...

 

i thank you.

Author's Note

“I always thought that I was sick and you were the cure. But everyone gets things backwards sometimes.”

Reviews

[emma]

I really liked this.

"i want the kick they give to your stomach
to hit you so hard all the lies you've swallowed about on me,
come crawling up your throat and tumbling to the ground."

That was a really powerful line, adding to the very emotional piece. I think everyone can relate to the feeling of betrayal at some point from the people they call "friends." really nice work.

[BLBrown]

Good write. I could really feel how much your hero/heroine suffered from such treatment. There is a great deal of anger in this, and if true, what a great way to get those emotions out!

[jennifer little]

wonderful poem loved reading it

[Michael X]

real and expressive, brings the words to life, creative job!