Chapter Eight -

I'm not crying; you're crying.

Chapter Eight:
Note: Dramaaaaaaaaa...

January 19:
Ring ring. Ring ring.
(DA) "What do you want?"
(MA) "I want to come home."
(DA) "Oh. Oh, sweetie. What happened?"
(MA) "Just... Can I come home?"
(DA) "Yes, of course you can. What's wrong?"
(MA) "Nothing. It's fine. I love you."
(DA) "I love you too. I missed you."
(MA) "Yeah, well, I'll be back now, so..."
(DA) "We'll need to get you into rehab right away."
(MA) "Yeah. I suppose. Guess this means no phone for awhile, huh? Probably a good thing anyways... Better of alone."


January 21:
(NR 3:46 am) "I can't sleep."
(NR 3:50 am) "Not that you care, or anything."
(NR 3:54 am) "Remember that time you couldn't sleep so I told you funny stories all night?"
(NR 3:58 am) "Just saying, that would be nice right about now..."
(NR 4:03 am) "I tried to sleep but I had a nightmare."
(NR 4:06 am) "I was drowning in this labyrinthine kind of thing, and it was completely dark except for the light of this luminescent heart."
(NR 4:10 am) "So trippy."
(NR 4:15 am) "I'm not lonely."
(NR 4:17 am) "I'm just obsessed with texting my drug addict friend who hates me."
(NR 4:23 am) "I hope you're not lonely."
(NR 4:26 am) "Goodnight.

January 24:
(NR 11:46 am) "I wrote a poem last night. Do you want to hear it?"
(NR 11:56 am) "Never mind. It sucks."

January 27:
(NR 7:46 pm) "I've been thinking a lot lately about the futility of human endeavor."
(NR 7:57 pm) "Not really sure what that means. I'll figure it out someday."

January 30:
(LH 2:36 pm) "Are you okay?"
(NR 3:38 pm) "Fine. Have you heard from Moth lately?"
(LH 3:47 pm) "No. You?"
(NR 3:56 pm) "No. Been texting her like mad, though."
(LH 3:58 pm) "Uh. Any idea when you're going to get out of the hospital?"
(NR 4:01 pm) "Let's just say Moth hasn't exactly been beneficial to my recovery. But... Yeah... I've been faking emotions a lot lately, and frankly, it's getting exhausting."
(LH 4:05 pm) "That sounds terrible."
(NR 4:07 pm) "I feel like my soul has atrophied, you know? No. You probably don't know �" at least, I hope you don't."
(LH 4:10 pm) "No. I don't. Sorry. I hope everything gets better soon."
(NR 4:13 pm) "Yeah, it's all... Fine... It's fine..."
(NR 4:18 pm) "I want to forget about her. That stupid, pretentious, obnoxious, git. I'm not mad... I'm just... I'm sorry. I'm bumming you out, aren't I?"
(LH 6:09 pm) "You're not bumming me out. Don't worry, I'm fine with whatever.
(NR 6:10 pm) "Thanks. Want to play a game?"
(LH 6:15 pm) "Oh, sorry. I can't. Bye."
(NR 6:17 pm) "I understand. It's okay. Bye."

February 2:
(NR 3:16 am) "I've come to the conclusion that we were never supposed to be anything at all."
(NR 3:18 am) "And that somehow we just got mixed up in each other by accident."
(NR 3:21 am) "Like you're sharp rocks and I'm grains of sand."
(NR 3:24 am) "And I just run right through you."
(NR 3:28 am) "And you never even notice me."
(NR 3:32 am) "And now I'm reduced to writing strange poetry,"
(NR 3:37 am) "To the even stranger person I text through cracks in the universe."

February 3:
(NR 7:29 pm) "I feel so stupid."

February 5:
(NR 5:36 pm) "Sadie's been arrested."
(NR 5:45 pm) "Just thought you should know that she's going to jail."
(NR 5:50 pm) "You're safe now. She won't hurt you anymore."

February 7:
(NR 7:38 pm) "The nurse just suggested I was lonely."
(NR 7:41 pm) "I won't even argue with her anymore."
(NR 7:45 pm) "She's right."

February 10:
(NR 7:35 am) "My hair's growing back."
(NR 7:56 am) "Peach fuzz..."
(NR 8:02 am) "Just like you said..."
(NR 8:06 am) "You were right."
(NR 8:08 am) "As usual."

February 14:
(NR 8:36 am) "Happy Valentine's Day!"

February 20:
(NR 4:47 pm) "Thank you."

February 24:
(NR 1:05 am) "I had another nightmare."
(NR 1:08 am) "I can't remember what it was."
(NR 1:13 am) "Those are the worst nightmares."
(NR 1:16 am) "The ones where you can't remember but they still haunt you."
(NR 1:20 am) "Stuck on the fringes of your mind."
(NR 1:34 am) "I'm scared of remembering."
(NR 1:42 am) "If it was bad enough to forget, just imagine how terrible it would be to remember?"

February 27:
(NR 9:26 pm) "My friend Blue had her baby!"
(NR 9:35 pm) "Little girl named Miracle."
(NR 9:43 pm) "Healthy."
(NR 9:46 pm) "8 pounds."
(NR 9:54 pm) "Glimmering brown eyes."
(NR 10:01 pm) "Beautiful."

March 3:
(NR 4:36 am) "I feel so pathetic."
(NR 4:40 am) "Staring at my phone and hoping you've texted me."
(NR 4:40 pm) "And I just kind of came to the realization."
(NR 4:44 pm) "That being alone just my natural state."
(NR 4:48 pm) "And that I'm better off that way."
(NR 4:52 pm) "So I'm deleting all my texts."
(NR 4:56 pm) "Erasing your number from my phone."
(NR 5:00 pm) "I've decided I don't need you. And you certainly don't need me."
(NR 5:04 pm) "Forget about me, please."
(NR 5:07 pm) "Cause I'm forgetting about you."

Author's Note

SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD LOVE IT.