Desperation: Moments of dismay and wonder

One could view this as a venting of my worst days. Like a cup that becomes too full, I believe that people do overflow.

Simple pleasures in life seem so farfetched. Very few people know this feeling of dissatisfaction. Life seems so repetitive in my eyes. I feel as if I go through the same monotonous cycle everyday: wake up, go to school, come home, sleep. The circle of my day is always endlessly spinning. The moon will forever be waxing and waning while the tide will always lap at the white sand of the beach only to recede.
 Soon, I’ll know I’ll be happy. Very soon. Unfortunately, I’m still riding on my very own emotional rollercoaster. It can be so fatiguing sometimes, floating around in  bubble of bliss one moment, then having it pop and feel myself falling to the ground.
I’ve read the proverb ‘fall down seven times, get up eight.’ I abide by this, lamentably I just sink deeper into my own metaphorical thick puddle of mud. It’s so hard for me to be happy, I’m always so histrionic. I’m certain I’ve found my passions in life, writing and music put cushions down for me to fall on. I just wish I knew how to find peace. But I know I’ll be happy soon.
 Recently though, I won’t let my thoughts take over my life. I will no longer ruminate over such petty concerns. ‘You can not plow a field by turning it over in your head.’ they say. I need to live by this golden nugget of wisdom. The feeling of happiness; I will find it one day. Until that moment in time, I’ll let these letter and words comfort me.
 While creating this prose though, I can’t help but to think of how many depressing subjects I write about. I suppose I will write about something more optimistic. Maybe a few self-help guides? Literature comforts me. I’m happy that the high powers in our universe gave me an outlet for my pain. I put my over thinking to gratifying use on a blank sheet of loose leaf. I enjoy exploring the universes I create on paper. These worlds, I mold them with my, are a product of my emotions. I smile because on paper, I can explore the beings that I make. For a second though, I’m free from this world which always holds me in it’s grasp.

Reviews

[angelface13]

Very well written! Just one thing...it says "then having it pop and feel myself falling to the ground". It might flow a bit better if you said "then having it pop and feeling myself fall to the ground". Other than that, I thought it was really good!

[Phillitup]

Hi. This was great...really. Just one thing. When you said "I'll let these letters and words comfort me." You left the s out of letters.