State Of Mind

Don't know how to let it all go

reminded of it everyday.

It's weighed against the consequences

but I can't live without you.

Can't cut out my soul

and live with the gapping void.

Don't know how to take control

and wash away the fears.

I made the mistakes in the first place

and they are part of me.

Sitting right next to the heart of me

naked scars that we didn't see.

New wounds to cover the old

and I'm sick of all the hurt.

Sandpaper thoughts grate my sanity

and I can't stand the women in the mirror looking back at me.

She's alive inside of me

a part that screams silently.

That there is always

something wrong with me.

But I can choose to lose

the bruises on my heart.

I can live if I'm willing

just gotta put a stop to whats killing me.