Better Days

I never cry

I wish I had someone to relate
because all my friends have
become shallow strangers
I was once in love
until I drowned within her arms
that bitter aftertaste stole my heart

Because I drink too much
when I need simple resolve
I'm weak inside but you'll never see me cry
But I don't have a problem
I just need the strength
to face this life alone

I wish I could dream of better days
because I wake up in a cold sweat
afraid of who I have become
I was once scared
but the demons that tormented me
somehow seem friendly now

I drink too much
to try and drown my problems
I'm hurt inside but you'll never see me cry
I'm not that damaged
I'm just finding it hard
to enjoy this damn life

Reviews

[Rafia ~ Yellow Girl]

As I started reading this one I felt the tragedy of a lonesome heart wandering in a dark night out all alone, surrounded with many people but still grievances taking the goodness within him slowly and gradually. I like the way you have craved your subject with such a natural flow. Simply Loved this one!

[Red & Blue]

It wouldn't make you a weaker man for crying every now and then, in front of someone or alone. It will do you good.
The flow here is perfecto.

[Annabelle Lee]

Most all your poems have the same feel to them, if not the same story. It may be nice to step a little outside your comfort level? I mean, that's why we're here is it not?

[Simon Welsh]

I've been meaning to. Writing output has been a little sparse recently due to job searching however.

[Annabelle Lee]

understandable

[Pryde Foltz]

I drink too much
to try and drown my problems
I'm hurt inside but you'll never see me cry
I'm not that damaged
I'm just finding it hard
to enjoy this damn life

Great write, but crying ain't all that bad.

[Simon Welsh]

I never cry!

[Pryde Foltz]

We all need to cry even if it is laughter. Really.

[Simon Welsh]

I don't though!

[Pryde Foltz]

Interesting.

[RainDancer1997]

Friends come and go I guess, really great points in this poem:) enjoyed it!

[Fréyjä Helv..]

I love the sincerity being displayed here. You tell a story of your experience. I appreciate this sort of work..

[Clara]

I like how bare this poem is. It's been stripped down to the core andand I love the honesty in this.
Like others have said, it is a very relatable piece and many will identify with it.

I can definitely relate to having friends, but they don't understand what you're going through and you don't even know how to begin telling them how you feel. I can relate to pushing away the person you love most, because you don't feel worthy and you just don't know what you're supposed to feel. I've resorted drinking myself numb and it felt cathartic just to throw it all back up. You drive yourself to the point where you don't recognize yourself and 'the demons' all too become familiar.

Great write, Elliott. I hope you're okay. Always here if you need a listening ear. :)

[s y e]

Wow E - this is such an honest powerful write, a really relatable write as many people will point out. I've felt like this but I have not yet done the drinking part, don't intend to any time soon either but that's not the point, I hope you feel better soon, keep your chin up, bud.

[Traci]

I like the honesty portrayed in this write. This is a poem I think many will relate to. I've lost count of the many times I've felt this way, drinking my sorrows away, unwilling to cry, and always "finding it hard to enjoy this damn life." However each day is a new day, strength permeates and we manage to find our way back into the light. Much love to you, my friend.

[Simon Welsh]

Glad you liked the poem hon :) much love in return.