Alarm clock screeching

I miss someone that I never knew,

Not completely anyway

I miss his imaginary arms wrapped around me

I miss our pretend vacations to Rome

And how our someday babies have his eyes.

I miss him.

My sound mind tells me that it is madness

To miss something that wasn’t even true

But the other part of me says

If you can dream it you can be it

And I dreamed of him constantly.

The sound of the alarm clock screeching

Tore him from me years ago

But today I wish I could tell him

How I wish he were who I thought he was

How I longed for his body to be like I saw in my dreams

I wish he was the man I married in my sleep

So I wouldn’t have to be missing him today.