Early midlife crisis.

I wanna go back
to when I was a starry eyed dreamer
trapping myself in situations unrealistic
I wanna go back
to a time when I got up on my soap box
preaching to the masses about my greatness
I wanna go back
to the days when I spent my time believing
that my ideas could change the world.
I wanna go back.

I wanna believe
that my whims are more than fleeting
and that this will soon all be a story I tell at parties
I wanna believe
that my dreams are not just my mind playing tricks on me
but roadmaps to what lies ahead of me
I wanna believe
that I haven't missed my exit
that I am still on the track God had in mind
I wanna believe

I wanna go back
to being the girl I used to be
I wanna believe
that I can and that it isn't too late
I wanna go back
to a time where it didn't make sense to stop
I wanna believe
that the time will come when I won't say
I wanna go back