When it matters

It is for you, just in case you are reading this. Much love.

My insecurity only matched by my zest for life.

My thoughts race

Stuck in the middle between ecstasy and madness

I am not even sure of what I am after.

Alive in the moment.

Smiling frantic as your mind aches.

I am that girl

My actions cause a mix of love and hate.

Even so you can't give me up.

I eat at you like an addiction

So manic so timid.

Enigmatic to the bone

You can't believe it has been ten years.

My next move a mystery

Your reaction is all but scripted.

We do this dance seemingly unaware of each other.

We never miss a step.

Dodging bullets that could break us

We still aim true every time.

I am not the girl you remember

You the same evermore.

Predict the end of this crazy ride

Spirutual as I am I don't think it possible to say.

We prove them wrong everytime.

Take my crazy as your own

Find insanity a welcomed friend.

I take your sensibilities and run.

And I shall see you when it matters.