It Breaks Me

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It breaks me to see myself with your eyes, dwell upon the assumptions you must have of me, to do unto me as you did, I often wonder.

It breaks me to know, I could be so meek in the face of such unprovoked outbursts, chagrin, squalls and misplaced thunder.

It breaks me to know, I could be so utterly giving into the hands of such incessant, self-entitled taking by another.

It breaks me to know, all of me given with every vehement ounce of me, couldn’t garner a response even roadside wenches evince from their labour class lovers.

It breaks me to know, it could have been different for me, had my skin tone been one of milk and not a mocha colour.

It breaks me to know, no matter what the affairs of the heart or the leanings of the soul, the superficial will always prevail over the deeper other.

It breaks me to know, there is a man out there who could commit a crime with such impunity and walk away as I scrub my own remnants off the bloodied floor, over and over.

Author's Note

So said the man eater to those who ate her

Reviews

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😕....they do it!
there's a thing in us girls...we're the most absorbent though no need to present proves each time....
Men are always protective...actually there are some costumes found at a market which are exactly similar to men...they are worn by beast or I shall say "beastwear"!!...
Jokes apart, you've done real great work dear Dhara...Be blessed :)

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Thank you Tahsin. I like the beastwear :) Maybe I'll go to the market today :) ;)

[Vivian Gospel]

Break ups always suck s**t. They turn familiar people into strangers and memories into something else... can do without them.

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

I do agree with you that they suck in a way. But look at other side of it Vivian. You get to lose the excess burden of the crap you were carrying around. You get to be free. So I flush ;(

[Vivian Gospel]

It was a happy encumbrance for me three years ago.. and now it feels revisited

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

From your words, I feel the past is revisiting. If you’re happy, that’s great. All that matters.

[Suhd]

There are bitter and naked truths in this one. This breaks me too, to be honest. Such a deep write-up. The tone is quite melancholic and it seems so perfect coming from a person whose love hasn't been requited. Inspiring stuff, Dhara :)

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Indeed, an interesting point raised by you Suhd. I have been loved I feel, but just not enough and as I expected. There is a clash of wills here, also a communication gap. All of which shouldn’t occur if there is enough love. I thank you for precious opinion here.

[Zayir]

I take this poem as a woman who gets raped but is not taken seriously because of her society and color. No amount of scrubbing could remove the feelings of disgust she has. A woman who yearns to be seen, not by any physical means but by soul and emotions. Beautiful as always. You put out so many great poems so often that you encourage me to write more. I also had to look up chagrin and evince. So thank you for the new words and an emotional read haha

Much Love

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Thank you so much Zayir. When we aren’t returned what we put out there, it almost feels akin to being looted. You’re spot on. I’m grateful for your precious views on this.

[LazerRays]

This poem really speaks to me. I can feel the hurt as each line grows more and more powerful. This is just what I needed to read this morning :)

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Thank you for relating to this Sarah.

[Chris Shaw]

Eggs and bacon this morning for breakfast, no man eaters on the menu. I read, I digest, I feel. I react to the written word without having a clue who I may be reading, what gender, colour, creed or anything else thrown in for added measure. This offering is quite different from other work of yours I have read. Your final stanza serious, thought provoking and shows the author in a vulnerable light.

Chris

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

I love an English breakfast and eggs and bacon make for a very pleasant start to the day. :)
This poem was written in 20 minutes in one hasty scrawl after I was inspired by a similar poem of another poet on this site. That it touched you, encourages me to keep trying my hand at writing in all genres. I will be attempting more structured poetry soon (Free verse kind of disappoints me with myself) Thank you again Chris.

[Chris Shaw]

Write away. Pleased to read you.

Chris