Hating Life

The scenarios they play in my head
Is it dread?
Sometimes I wish I could be dead and restart my life over... Or just certain parts..

My life is a mess
My life is... worthless at some points..
My life is a puzzle that I don't have the pieces for..
My life is a puzzle I don't understand..

My past is sad
My past is horrifying
My past is a memory that will never fade...

I hate my life...
I hate it because of my past
I hate it because of my failures
I hate it because of the fake people and friends
I hate it because I feel hopeless.. like maybe I don't belong..
I hate this life because I feel I'm a failure..
Which the sad truth is I believe I am ....

If I could restart and keep 2 people in my life.. It would be my girlfriend and my best friend...
I love them both and I would be so lost without them!

They're the only ones keeping me sane,
They give me reason
They give me strength for each day
They support me like no one else does
They're family to me.. and I would rather turn to them than anyone else

I love them
I want to say thank you to them both
Especially for being in my disgraceful life..

So thank you for lighting my world of darkness up, even in my worst of times...
Thank you for being there when I had no one else to turn to..

Author's Note

It's why I hate my life I guess...

Reviews

[RxQueen]

I love the line "My life is a puzzle that I don't have the pieces for.. "

[King Spark]

Thank you, i don't know how i thought of it, but life is one big puzzle

[AcasualPawn]

Well, leaving some parts in the poem its the same for me too.....
So dont hate life.
Just smile at it.........

Keep the good work

[King Spark]

I try my best not to hate it, but to be honest, i hate it with a passion especially with my past and now.
I always do my best to smile at it

and Thank you i really appreciate it

[AcasualPawn]

Don't just smile at it......
Smile at it with satire.....
Any way we have to die eventually

[King Spark]

I'll keep smiling even If it's not in me to smile...

And that's too true, we do someday, we need to live our lives how we want to, not how others want us to live it , for our own sake and not theirs

[AcasualPawn]

Yeah sure, best wishes

[DarkArtz 0703]

oh my god... I didn't know you felt like that..... im sorry.... I really wish I as there right now to help

never give up okay!!

[King Spark]

it's sad... but it's the truth through my eyes.. you don't need to be sorry for anything, i wish you could be here too

and i'm not going to give up.. that's a promise

[DarkArtz 0703]

I know I don't need to be but I am... mainly cause I cant do anything to help

[Avery]

It's good that you have people in your life that make you as happy as they do. Even in rough times. I hope someday I will find a friend that makes me that courageous.

[King Spark]

I know... i really want you to be here

And thank you Avery, i hope you find some really good friends soon. I know mine have really changed my life forever

[DarkArtz 0703]

yes friends do the best they can to make sure your okay

[DarkArtz 0703]

I love you and him too.... I love him cause he's there for you when... in person I can't be.... and you know why I love you baby

[King Spark]

I know baby.... one day you'll get to meet him..and i definitely do, and i love you so much

[DarkArtz 0703]

I love you too