To Make AmendsA Story by EverseaAfter the apocalypse, a young woman tries to avenge the wrong she did her sister.Amanda’s hand clutches my
wrist. I refuse to look at her pitying expression. ‘Come with us,’ she pleads, her voice
weak from repeating itself. ‘Snow will be setting in soon and the havens need
more women.’ ‘I have someone to find,’ I remind
her, pulling my wrist away. ‘You lot go ahead.’ Yanking the door open, I stride into
the night. Metal shutters clang. Everything is in need of repair. Glass is
broken and bricks are crumbling, doors lay on their splintered sides. St. Paul
is a mess and the few still here are ready to flee. A syringe lies in the
gutter. I spit at it. I hope the doctor is in a cell somewhere, laughing her
head off for the rest of her unnaturally long life. Cackling bounces off the
walls and my fingers skim the guns strapped to my legs. I watch each body
carefully, even Old Joe, the homeless man who has been rotting away against the
community centre wall for the past eight months. Taking a new route, I check abandoned
cars and houses for anything useable. What’s left of a man lies next to a can
of green beans, his wasted fingers clutched around a hunting rifle. Holding my
breath, I scour through a police car. A few more cartridges of ammo for my
dwindling stock. Another pistol. I stop at the entrance to an apartment
complex. Down a long drive, past dumpsters and bones, is laughter. Dashing
inside, I move from wall to wall. In deep shadow, I press my back against the
bricks. Mad babbling echoes around the corner. Fingers check the cartridges in
my pockets then hover above my pistols. Hooked fingers slide them from their
holsters and curl around the handles. She’ll be here tonight. Tonight I’ll find
her. The babbling bursts into high, shrieking giggles, cuts off. Fast, urgent whispers. Easing
around the corner, I glance back up the drive. Shattered glass, a couple of
fire escapes and fourteen mad. Some cry. Others laugh. A couple scream at each other,
swiping and scratching their faces and arms. A child is smiling at a wall. She
leans closer, giggles, slams forward. Her head cracks against the bricks. Blood streams down
her cheeks. Still giggling, she snaps forward again. And again. And again. I stare at the sky. How many stars
tonight, Cathy? One. Two. I adjust my grip on the guns. Five. Six. My heart
rushes. Nine. Ten. I
spin around the corner, aim and fire, right hand, then left. The child. The
couple fighting. The whisperer. One after the other they drop. Something grabs my shoulder. Without
hesitation, I elbow them in the gut and fire into their skulls. Blood and
matter and bits of fragmented bone. I drag the back of my hand across my mouth
and spit onto the road. Reloading, I wait. More are swarming toward me, joining
their kind on the darkened streets. The click of the cartridge slotting into
place makes me breathe easier. Little sister, where are you? After six
years of looking,
I won’t fail you again. Whirling, I crack my elbow across
one’s face. He stumbles and trips. Another crumples when my knee connects low. How
normal they would look without that moon madness in their eyes. A bullet into
the shoulder of a third. The shoulder? Really? I fire again. Better. I shoot another,
dodge a punch, smash the butt of my gun against her head. Turning on my heel, I
take down three more. An empty click. Shuffling backward, I reload and begin
again. Bullet, punch, bodies keep dropping. They’ll slip between my bullets and
their teeth will find my flesh. Guns in their holsters, I sprint. Planting one
foot on a trash can, I launch myself into the air. My hands clamp around the
cold edge of a fire escape and paint flakes off as I haul myself up. Heart
racing, I climb, footfalls ringing on the metal stairs. My skin is flushed and
my breath is short. I won’t give up. I will make things right for her. I reach the roof. Two dive at me and I
dispatch one while the other throws himself to the side. Stumbling back, I see
his claws flash past my face and I fall onto my back, getting my legs between
us. Snarling, swiping, he strains to hit me. With a kick, I throw him up over
the edge of the building. Panting, I stare at the stars. I’m tired of this. Why
haven’t I found her yet? My whole reason for everything. I push myself to my feet. Something is
lurking across the roof. Watching me. Mirroring me. A grin baring bloody teeth.
My hands come up, guns aim, fingers twitch. I stop before I pull the trigger.
Pale brown hair. Light brown eyes. Pink lips curl in a familiar smile. ‘Hello Jen,’ she speaks and my aim
wavers. ‘Haven’t seen you in a while.’ ‘Hello,’ I choke back, holding in a flood
of tears. She slides closer, my eyes meet with
hers. I remember them smiling. I
remember them wrinkling at the edges, tearing up in fits of laughter. I
remember them wide with shock and pain. Our mother’s hands ripped from ours.
Her pleas for us to keep going. Teeth in Catherine’s skin. It was those eyes I
looked into as I held a knife above her heart and failed her. My guns waver. ‘Do you still count the stars?’
Catherine whispers. A giggle bursts out. She looks around, sharing the joke
with invisible friends. ‘Do. You. Count?’ She laughs again. Stops. Glares at me.
A smirk slithers across her face. Raising her arms, she stretches them up
toward the sky. I have to do it. I won’t let her go again. I won’t let her live
like this. ‘Oh, I bet you do,’ she hums. She
runs, straight for me. ‘I bet you do.’ ‘I’m sorry, Cathy,’ I whisper, tears
blinding me. Pull the triggers. Bang. The sound cracks the night and rings in
my ears. A split second when I hope I’ve missed, another when I know I’ve hit. Quivering, I drop the guns and push
them away. Kick them farther. A sob, a howl wrenches free. My legs give in and
I curl over, forehead pressed against the ground and I cry. I had to. Of course
I had to. She wanted me to. She cried when she felt the virus in her. She
didn’t want to laugh. She’s gone, there’s no more reason to be out here. Who would notice if I stopped, if I went to the haven with Amanda and - I couldn’t do anything. There was no reason to anymore. I fixed it. I saved her. There’s nothing left to do. I don’t have to be here. My lips strain in a relieved smile. I force myself up, feet dragging across the concrete, stumbling onto the lip of the roof. Below are hungry faces. Screaming, laughing, calling to me. My tears bleed their faces together. One, large breath calms my trembling. It’s over. I step forward into empty air. © 2016 Eversea |
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Added on November 6, 2014 Last Updated on February 2, 2016 Tags: zombies, apocalypse, revenge, sad Author
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