To the DeadA Poem by Liam AnthonyThis is a poem that i wrote a few years back, it may be terrible but it holds a special place inside me that i like to remember.I sit in the twilight of the tar of my heart, reading Howl
and feeling Ginsburg. My heart revolts, begins to beat harder than a 1950's
husband. This revolution takes my mind in harsh strains- I begin to believe i
am the reincarnation of Ginsburg, wanting hat one cannot have, writing beauty
and filth together as one. Kerouac is my first and distant muse making my body
burst like a star and turn black and rotten like a tumor. I create public
statements and promotions that only my suffering will truly comprehend. It
emphasizes that everybody expects to understand beforehand and nowhere
in-between. Coffee stains my hands and cigarette smoke slides down my throat
warm and gentile. I feel the black tar of my heart explode in glorious bright .
My personality disintegrates and is replaced by something despicable Love My yearning is what people only see in others and never themselves. The mystery
of the hanging gardens of Babylon can only explain the yearning that my
existence has created. I lay back and close my eyes. I see all of time flickering behind my eyelids,
colours twist a hallucinatory normality inside them. Negros twist machines then
ravage their lovers, climaxing at once around the world. Cigarette butts poke out of half eaten mashed potatoes, bones licked clean as
bleached teeth dipped in lye. The ground vibrates and crashes, a giant gold
skyscraper is birthed from the ground, the sun shines on the newborn building
and blinds the people below. They sit above stuffing their faces and rubbing
their earnings on children and animals. They take the world and s**t it back out
again expecting something new, disregarding variables and doves. Harpies swarm
the general public tearing their skin from their bodies - these beasts are the
seed of the new rulers that will kiss the moon. Dogs wrap themselves in
curtains to discipline themselves for their absent owners have morphed into a
spiritual state. A state of golden tears. We fluctuate from city to city
tasting the life that has been left behind by previous dwellers. We forsake the
history of the world in search for a new ideal that will then again be taken
from city to city but tasted no more. It is expected of us to have o
non-acceptance, but in this catastrophic future we will hate everything
equally. Silver pants cling to her thighs like some form of exoskin, her aura engulfs me
as i enter the room. Her red eyes touch all that i am and kill me inside. She
struts towards my shaking body and i can feel my pores gape with the
anticipation of ages. The want grows as she zones in on me, my body is a mess
but it does not show; i look beautiful. She is about to speak the child's truth
when she turns and deserts me. I crumble and break, the floor falls through and
i go with it. My destruction follows the golden skyscraper. I am the rejuvenation, Destroyer, Father, Killer, Lord, Waster, Abuser,
Follower, King.... King, King King, King King, King, King, King, King, King,
King, King, King.... King of... Nothing. I wake with a shudder- Ginsburg is dead, Kerouac Dead. I am reborn in my own
dark and deceptive glory. The expensive fabric of the universe licks the trees
around me. I am nothing but myself and all of my yearning is locked away in a
shell- but it will always be there like the idea of Ginsburg and Kerouac,
Burroughs and Cave. The crutch of my life stays like the tears of children. I touch
the skull and multicoloured sequins of our dead generation, wailing in its
infinite routine.. © 2017 Liam AnthonyAuthor's Note
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Added on March 21, 2017 Last Updated on March 21, 2017 AuthorLiam AnthonyNewcastle, New Lambton Heights, AustraliaAboutI'm twenty-two, live in Australia and am trying my best to write well with the hopes of publishing something one day. Even though hopes are slim. more..Writing
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