There are words in my head
That are better left unsaid.
But they inundate my brain,
Making me insane!
The words are in my head;
Just go mute or be dead.
I only want peace for a short time.
Would that really be such a crime?
There are feelings in my heart
That keep tearing me apart.
But I cannot tell a soul.
No one can know that I’m out of control.
The feelings in my heart;
Just pause for a moment before they restart.
Give me some time to mend my insides,
Hide the scars behind my lies.
My future is so very unclear
That I’m not sure I’m even here.
It scares me more than anyone will know
But I refuse to let that show.
My future that is so very unclear;
Speed up the time so the future is near.
Or make my future happen now.
I don’t care, just do it somehow.
I just wish these things would abrogate,
Or even for short time, just abate.
Please, let me have a time of release,
A single moment I can feel at peace.