What If...

What If...

A Poem by Cecile Wonder
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My feelings they may relate to more than one of you.

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What If...
What if everything people tell me
Is just a lie,
A story they want me to believe?

What if all the acts of kindness
Is just that,
A act, nothing more, nothing less?

What if I don't have a heart
That's beating and loving,
Instead I'm left with this cold, empty, part?

What if I've actually lost them,
Feelings to be happy,
Replaced with anger, hate, and sadness?

What if I'm not who I thought I was
And now have another side,
A evil twin no one but I hear?

What if I were to slash it quick
And bleed slowly,
But surely to my death?

What if I'm right
And no one will actually care,
That they really do want me gone?

What if life isn't what I want
And can't stand,
Would I call a quits or just leave?

© 2014 Cecile Wonder


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Cecile Wonder
Please reply to how this made you feel. Or any suggestions you have to make it better.

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I only see grammatical errors, but who cares. This made me feel that so many of our youth are feeling lost. Lost in a dire state of depression, and in many it takes the form of anger, but all too well is it stemming from sadness still. Then let through as a visage of what many would deem as "what's wrong" with our generation; the suicides, cutting, depressing words writ as well as crime, violent or not. But I don't believe anything is wrong inside, but yet..everything. We are not being guided and are not allowed to guide ourselves down a better path. It is hard, perhaps very hard, and especially within the established way of things. However, it is achievable. Many of us are quite sensitive, as any child. But within ourselves we 'know' what we need. Even if it's just a day in the sun, or a strangers kind words, to a fathers attention. Perhaps we cannot provide all of these things for ourselves, but we sure can provide a means to achieve what ultimately...cultivates our growth. (I enjoyed reading this).

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Cecile Wonder

10 Years Ago

Thank-you Vincent.



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a thought provoking piece.....

well done....

Posted 8 Years Ago


I often feel the same way - like people aren't honest and real. Who are we really? I like what you are conveying - so very true. What and whom can we really trust?

Posted 9 Years Ago


Cecile Wonder

9 Years Ago

Exactly, it's even scarier when you lose all the people you are told to trust. It makes life very h.. read more
Re-Pete

9 Years Ago

So true. If you get a chance read my piece called 'Reflections' - similar dark views but then I fli.. read more
Cecile Wonder

9 Years Ago

okay, i will
I've honestly always felt I had an evil twin inside me. Haha. The only times I really remember being happy are when I was real young. As I got older and continue to get older, I am constantly feeling numb inside...expressing anger when I feel any type of emotion within me. Anger isn't healthy, but I know how it works and what it can lead to...it can consume you and I've truly been consumed by it. I've been doing my best lately to focus on myself and to make myself find something that makes me smile, that makes me feel something other than anger. I don't bother getting mad at those around me, expecting things cause if you expect something from everyone you meet, you just end up getting let down. Just take life one day at a time, that's what my dad always tells me when I am in a bad mood or having a bad day. I've always listened to those words and kept them apart of me...and slowly, you'll find that light at the end of a tunnel. I promise :)

Posted 10 Years Ago


Cecile Wonder

10 Years Ago

I have a bad habit that i trust everyone fully until they prove me wrong, and they always prove me .. read more
I Am Svetlana

10 Years Ago

In my opinion, you shouldn't stop talking unless YOU want to. Sure, people can and may ask you to be.. read more
Cecile Wonder

10 Years Ago

I agree completely, I wear this mask of mine so often that sometimes I forget that I don't have to p.. read more
I only see grammatical errors, but who cares. This made me feel that so many of our youth are feeling lost. Lost in a dire state of depression, and in many it takes the form of anger, but all too well is it stemming from sadness still. Then let through as a visage of what many would deem as "what's wrong" with our generation; the suicides, cutting, depressing words writ as well as crime, violent or not. But I don't believe anything is wrong inside, but yet..everything. We are not being guided and are not allowed to guide ourselves down a better path. It is hard, perhaps very hard, and especially within the established way of things. However, it is achievable. Many of us are quite sensitive, as any child. But within ourselves we 'know' what we need. Even if it's just a day in the sun, or a strangers kind words, to a fathers attention. Perhaps we cannot provide all of these things for ourselves, but we sure can provide a means to achieve what ultimately...cultivates our growth. (I enjoyed reading this).

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Cecile Wonder

10 Years Ago

Thank-you Vincent.
that was really amazing, it is set up awesome, some people aren't given a chance by other people because they are different and all that stuff and some people just look at them and pass them by, it sucks but the sad part is it happens, keep up the great work and i will continue to read them :)

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I agree. I always want to see the best in everyone, but some times that is very hard and I have to wonder. I really hope that someday I will feel the opposite of my poem.

Posted 10 Years Ago


I really like the opening lines. I want to believe not all people are selfish and self-serving but it doesn't always seem that way.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Cecile Wonder

10 Years Ago

Oops, I meant to put this here. I agree. I always want to see the best in everyone, but some times .. read more

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Cecile Wonder
Cecile Wonder

Bellevue, MI



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