Fading

I lie awake another night
trying to cry myself asleep.
It's completely dark
and tears are pouring out.
I try to fight this self destructing urge,
but it's so hard when no one understands.
Restless nights
with so many tears.
Depression has taken over me.
I feel so alone in the horrible fight.
No one cares.
No one wants to.
As I continue to cry,
all my feelings come out at once.
Don't give up;
how can I not?
The world is so evil.
Why do I have to stay here?
It would be so much easier to go away.
I am already fading.
Soon I will be nothing.
I keep falling down over and over
but this time
I won't get back up.