Trap and Crap

Change is good Change is bad In the end, you are fucked up by this change

Change is an integral part in everyone's life. Most of the times people say like change yourself for a good cause or change yourself and start working hard, you will look amazing etc etc. But in the midst of this entire change process, what we lack is our own identity, simplicity and a mild happiness blend with innocence. All we do is changing ourselves for the sake of others. Well, its not our fault. We are all bind by society rules and limits. If someone catches the weak point of others, he/she will create a massive group and start bullying the other one until he/she get totally torn apart. Sadly, one day Parry decides to show these people that she isn't something to be bullied or not a kinda cartoon stuff. So she starts working out hard to get a new avatar to shut the mouth of these people. And finally it happens. Everyone is shocked after seeing such a drastic change. Funny thing is many of them doubted like whether she has done some surgery or what? Now she is feeling proud and she has ample of answers for just one single question asked by so many. She can now dream a world rich in glam and fashion with people following her like stray dogs. Now she has so many boys offering her for date. Every weekends seem to be working days for her. Days passed by and she get bored because all she can feel is the repetitions in her life. Everyone just want to f**k her and nobody even cares that this girl has some potential, some interests. After knowing all these things, all she want is to seek for someone who could stable her.But every time she felt the same. Her trust over him starts fading after few days.She decides to let her life going as the way it is. All she tries to keep distance from those guys. But she is so trapped in physical pleasure that its really hard for her to resist. She tries her best to make it minimum with a hope that someone will come soon who can really understand her and take her out from this trap. She is a nice girl. All she needs is a right guy to care and love her. It's very obvious for her to get herself  involved in parties,smooches and sex.Right from the childhood till her masters, almost around 19 years she has seen all of her friends enjoying those beautiful and tender moments, getting high, being loved by good looking boys which remain a dream for her. Now if she has changed herself, its a very natural thing for her to enjoy all those things which she has missed. But finally what she gets? A chain of depressions, instability, confusions and cries. Now she has lots of delicacies in front of her, but she's confused. Now sometimes while sitting at the terrace, she thinks that previously at least somehow she was happy.There was no love, passion and warmth in her life.But to suppress her sorrow, a lots of junk foods made her happy. May be there were no boys in her life, but she had her video games to keep her involved day and night. But now, its reverse. Now she desperately looks for cigarettes to cure her sorrows. If one day she don't find herself engaged, she starts to make calls . If she eats one slice of pizza, she thinks thousand times that how many calories are adding. Previously she didn't care of what people think of her food habits. Though she got sad by their comments, but she was able to heal herself through food. But now it's like she's losing everything. What's the need of this outer beauty driven by consciousness, attraction and lust. She is realizing it right now and wants to get back to her previous life staying happy by herself, but at the same time she don't want to get bullied and look odd.She's just stuck on the puzzle and think about its solution. It's a bitter truth that no guy is going to love you until and unless you look beautiful from outside. Most of the guys run for beauty. So She decides to stay at her present mode and will struggle with the series of events happening to her. She is sure and hopeful that one day she will come out of this trap and crap and will get stable. There is a saturation point for everything. May be she hasn't reached that point, but will reach one day. For that time, she preserves the sweet moments and cut out the rest of the craps.

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[OBWhiteHawk]

I think a lot of people can relate to this, many drown their sorrows in unhealthy food and behaviors. I hope she does come out the trap.
One suggestion, break this into paragraphs, it would make it easier to read for people. :)

[writer in trial]

Thanks Dear :)
Yeah you're right. Even if i have gone through this stage, so i wrote it keep these things in mind.
And thanks for the suggestion. I will keep this in mind.:)