ILY

A love poem. Or a confession?

Oh, ILY
I avoided you for so long, really
I should have said something sooner
Because every second, my life gets duller

Truth is, I didn't really say anything
Now I relish in regret knowing that was a mistake at the time
I was the boy with the stammer and speech impediment
The one kid who couldn't curl his 'L's
I was so insecure that I doubted you could be my cure
Not to fix my broken speech but my broken will of a word
A word could have been my world

But, I said "No!"
The only word I understood in the dictionary of my heart
That I blasted into your frail ears
Overloading your smallish senses
Now smitten with aimless apathy

I could only say, "I'm sorry..."
But that wistful song was stuck on repeat
All I needed was an "and"
And all I got from me was ___

Then, I avoided you
Never able to speak the fourth syllable of all my hopes and dreams
I waited and I waited and I waited
Told me you'd find me before I find you
But nothing happened once again

Truth is I can't trust in my tongue
Still, I don't care if we don't bloom
When you poured your will from your chalice
A row of lilies were born here all withered
So here I stand on them now to speak my pounding heart to you

It's time to let my paining ills heal
My words are forever true!

Oh, Lily...


I'll be waiting for you at the end of my story...