Yin and Yan - Past verse Present

I believe every person have yin and yan in them, but i also believe that in my case it is a bit different - its yin, yan and me.

I dont blabber uselesly, i just need to speak loud,
some urgency in me wants me to stand out.
There is a craving inside me to be heard,
to be a part of something or another.
A lot of feelings are piling deep,
some are good but mostly the one which drags me.
Hell lot of pain and suffocation trapped down,
false expressions slam the door bound.
Its like half of me is locked away,
not to be heard, seen or cared.
A baby who is crying for quite long,
but its falling on deaf ears all along.
Sometimes its like a caged monster,
shouting and throwing things at everyone.
Screaming its lungs out and blazing eyes with fire,
but the mask on my face hides the ugliness and keep down its deadly desires.
it only reveals what it think is right,
as per the ragged standard of the world, mocking me "its fine".
These yin and yan are tearing me apart,
each want to win this battle at my cost.
Each want its freedom, its individual existence,
doesnt matter to them, dont even bother about by resistence.
What seems like to be a mere nightmare,
will be a reality soon, when i will kill them both and rise from their cadaver.......